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Post by Deleted on Oct 7, 2009 1:50:52 GMT -5
I've always had a huge problem with self-esteem. I've never been too fond of myself. Being in a wheelchair, unemployed, unable to drive and still livin at home has fucked with my head for the past 3-4 years. But I always hide this from people, because everyone always says they admire me for keeping such a great disposition despite everything thats happened to me. I always felt like that was the only thing I've ever done right. Anyway, tonight I was listening to Shannon (the live version of Guns n Roses "Don't Cry" where you can hear Shannon overpowering Axel's voice.) and I stepped outside for a quick and i was sitting there in the cold wind looking at the clouds swirling over my head, and I noticed cloud looked like a vague-smiling face. I won't say I thought it was Shannon, because that seems silly, but whatever "it was" it just put a smile on my face and for some reason I just sat there and thought "Wow, it's a beautiful night. I think eveythings going to be ok." This happens quite often when I listen to Shannon, I could be having a bad day but when I hear him, I just can't help but groove and be happy. The depression still comes and goes, but Shannon and Blind Melon are a great form of therapy until I can get my life back on track and scrape together money and time for some long term help.
Ok, I'm done rambling now.
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Post by Christy.J on Oct 7, 2009 7:37:50 GMT -5
I am sorry to hear about your situation i hope you feel better. I know Shannon and BM music always make me happy no matter what is going on. There always seems to be something about the music that just put me in a happy place
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soul0ne
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"..no I never got the chance to say good-bye..."
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Post by soul0ne on Oct 7, 2009 11:40:21 GMT -5
I hope you'll feel better soon.. Shannon and his music make me feel the way you feel, everytime... And "Don't Cry"... Yes it's so special with that version of it, it makes me wanna cry, I know It says "do not!!", but I can't help... But not beacuse of sadness, some mixed feelings, that I can't explain with my poor English... Whatever listen to more BM and Shannon songs and feel better!!!, shannon's music and all the BM fans are with you...
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Post by yelram on Oct 7, 2009 14:48:34 GMT -5
Maybe 500,000 FED UP FACES.....
Shannon did it, and you get it on the inside, one day you'll get it on the outside too, and the "forest will echo with laughter"....;-) Peace and love fellow traveler.
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~LoveJoy~
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the way it looked before felt better from the window..now that its fadin away...i feel it everyday..
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Post by ~LoveJoy~ on Oct 8, 2009 21:25:39 GMT -5
resiak....thanks for sharing that...it put a smile on MY face. i kinda think i might know what you mean....you know shannon called their/his music mood music.....i cant think of one time when i was feelin good that shannon's voice has ever brought me down....but if im feelin down it kinda helps me clear my mind. i think that comes from the honesty in his voice and words.....i definitely think that along with all of the beautiful things around us his voice can definitely shed light on a new perspective. thanks man....you made me smile today!!! #smileyhug#
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Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2009 21:59:57 GMT -5
Thanks y'all. I finally got my driver's license today. I now have a fan with a ramp for my wheelchair and handcontrols for driving. So, the only way I wont be at the vigil next year is if I'm dead. I feel like I need to "Thank him" personally. And of course give my respects to Mama Hoon.
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holyman47
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Post by holyman47 on Oct 15, 2009 13:35:00 GMT -5
Wow man thats inspiring. My two Favourite bands seems to contradict each other in the wya they make me feel. BM makes me feel happy, And AIC sometimes honestly makes me want to kill myself I dont know why,
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Post by nakednoggin on Nov 2, 2009 0:07:22 GMT -5
I know what you mean, it's like cold cream pouring over a burning heart when I hear him. The death of others should ultimately teach us to really appreciate life, and to make the best we can of it. I take it you haven't always been in a wheelchair. That depression must be very intense. Reading about your resilience is inspiring. Hearing about your van is awesome. I'm glad things are getting easier for you. I truly hope you make the vigil.
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