melondew
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"I need to be on top of a mountain where I can see everything cause this paranoia's getting old"
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Post by melondew on Sept 16, 2007 20:40:34 GMT -5
So, since I joined this board awhile back, as time has gone on there has been something that has been gnawing at me. This board is, from what I gather, a place for appreciation of Blind Melon and Shannon Hoon(I know, rocket science). Well, I have to confess, that when Soup came out, there were a lot of things I didn't understand about Shannon, Blind Melon and life in general. It was 1995, I was all of 17 years old. So when I read the lyrics I was confounded, it all seemed like, well, Soup and I really didn't care much for Shannon at that point. When he passed on, I was sad, sad that there wouldn't be any more music, and I was angry. I thought to myself, "Christ why couldn't the guy just get it together." I still listened to Blind Melon, but Soup at a minimum because the album just frustrated me. When Nico came out it quelled that frustration a little. It brought a more personal side out that I related to. It wasn't until my mid 20's when I was faced with addiction of my own, to the same drug that took Shannon, that I really understood what he was dealing with. Luckily, I was able to beat it. Not because I'm better than anyone else but because the woman I was with was a lot worse off than myself and I cared about her, so in my mind at the time the only way to save her was to get away from it myself. Little did I know I was saving myself. She never got away from it. It ruined her life. But now listening to Soup, I hear the cries, the words make so much more sense to me. But I do feel guilt for writing them off in the past. So it's important to me that ya'll know that I'm not really deservant of being thought of as a person who loved Shannon and his creations when he was alive, just because I am here. You all are much truer fans than myself. Now I only wish Shannon could have beat the addiction too, not just because it would have meant more amazing music, but because I know he would have seen so much more beautiful of a life than he had ever known. Only because that's what I see now. And having a daughter, and knowing how important we are to each other, it breaks my heart he(and Nico) never got to experience that. So, much respect to ya'll who saw his genious right away, you are the truest fans. And much respect to Shannon, I wish I could have respected you for who you were when you were alive, I'm sorry man.
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Post by meloncholy on Sept 17, 2007 7:52:56 GMT -5
that's beautiful. i'm glad you were able to turn your own life around, not many people can when they get that far down.
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Post by Brandy on Sept 17, 2007 14:22:45 GMT -5
Not everyone here feels the same we all have different reasons for being fans and some people have become fans after Shannon's death.There is no right and there is no wrong.whatever brought you here is reason enough.Well at least for me.I don't want to speak for others I think you're an awesome soul just for being a melon~ Peace,me
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Post by Meredith on Sept 17, 2007 20:01:35 GMT -5
Hey Melondew, I love your posts. You are a really great down to earth person. Addiction is an awful thing and its so hard to watch the people you love suffer from it. When I think of people I admire most I put people like you who have beaten an addiction highest on the list. There are a ton of Melon songs I didn't get in high school, but now these songs are like my best friends because I have lived more life and experienced more things. Its like hearing the songs again for the first time when you can really relate to the message.
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Samantha
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Post by Samantha on Sept 17, 2007 20:55:47 GMT -5
Melondew~I don't think you have to explain your motives or degrees of "allegience" to Shannon, you could have just heard the song an hour ago!! Speaking for myself, addiction is one of the most difficult things to deal with for all involved, congrats on that! I personnally think Shannon would be proud to have you as a fan ( and your music isn't too shabby either!!) As far as I've seen, anyone who is respectful and interested is welcome here, so have a great night and worry not my friend! You've been a nice addition to the forum!
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melondew
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"I need to be on top of a mountain where I can see everything cause this paranoia's getting old"
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Post by melondew on Sept 17, 2007 21:11:23 GMT -5
Thanks all, for being so cool and understanding. This forum is a really great place, I feel right at home, especially now!
Doug
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Post by Rebekah on Sept 17, 2007 21:30:53 GMT -5
I love your post they are so heartfelt
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Post by 8807 on Sept 18, 2007 12:43:45 GMT -5
I agree with you all,as usual Melons. Hey melondew,You're practically tellin' my story Man.I definately knew about the No Rain song & video when it took over America but got sick of that song quick.When Shannon died I heard about it,thought it was Heroin,which I was using,and thought Man,he should have stuck to the Acid.I heard Soul One in 96,then I started really listening to them & buying their cds.I had some guilty feelings about all that when I finally started posting a couple years ago on Hoonstruck.It takes every one of us to make this place as special as it is.The way I relate to all their songs still changes.Especially since I got off hard drugs,I also have a Daughter(what a gift)So thanx for your story.You belong here.
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