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Post by Gabbee on Jan 18, 2007 13:17:59 GMT -5
u know i get what the vigil is all about, i really feel it & feel it for you guys. a great time for you guys to unite. i get a big heavy ball in my throat though. i think it's a place for me to visit myself and w/ another maybe. at least for the first time. *sigh* what coulda been..... Yeah, for me I always thought that it would be so hard just getting to his grave... I always thought I'd cry my eyes out and feel extremely sad. Shannon's been my best and only friend since I was 15 even though I never knew him, but you know... Being 15 and moving to a foreign country and not speaking the language... it was hard but his words kept me sane. Even after learning the language I had a real hard time making friends in school, Ive always been a bit weird I guess.. But you know, HE was keeping me company (and singing to me ) when I was eating lunch by myself and walking back home from school. It's always been like that. But anyway, I always felt I NEEDED to go there someday, especially when I found the boards and made the best friends in life anyone could have. I mean yeah I now have made some good friends here but never have I connected with a group of people like the melonheads... But when I got to Lafayette and met up for the first time with people like Kiwi, Panda, Fernanda and a few other melonheads I already felt the energy.. It was time to celebrate, not to mourn. I remember that day like it was yesterday, Sept. 24th 2004... I got there and there were maybe 4 or 5 other people... Panda's guitar was sitting next to the grave, some guy was playing St Andrews, one of my favorite melon tunes, and I just stood there staring at his grave and SMILING. Yes, smiling... I thought the last thing I'd wanna do when I got there was smile, but i couldnt help it. I didn't see it as "Im here at Shannon's grave", it felt more like "I'm here next to Shannon". It was a good feeling. If the vigil was about mourning his death then it would be held around the time of Oct 21st.. But it's not, it's about celebrating his life, and I also take the time to celebrate my own and everyone else's there. I agree with Tonya that it's important to spend some alone time with Shannon too, though. Before leaving Indiana in 04 the girls and I made our last stop at the cemetary and stayed in the car, taking turns going to the grave for a one-on-one with Shannon. I cried then, fact, very few times in my life did I cry so much as I did on that occasion.. But it still felt good, I sat there and actually talked out loud with him for a few minutes... Btw, I realize this probably sounds completely psycho to some of you... Im always afraid some people will think that all of us who come to the vigil are crazy Shannon worshippers and whatnot, but I promise it's not like that.. It's a really cool and friendly environment where people come from all over the world and play/sing melon songs, meet other melonheads, hug strangers, hear lots of Shannon tales from his family members (thats the best part eh girls? He had so many stories... "In five lifetimes, hell I couldnt do them all" ;D), etc. So tripticket, I say come to the vigil, I promise you wont regret... Yes, deff. come early and spend some alone time with him, but dont miss the chance to be a party of his birthday celebration, it's life changing I promise... And once you go, you wont be able to live without it. I missed the last one and even though there was nothing I could do I still cant forgive myself... Do yourself a favor and be there in 07
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Post by hoon1234 on Jan 18, 2007 13:27:57 GMT -5
u know i get what the vigil is all about, i really feel it & feel it for you guys. a great time for you guys to unite. i get a big heavy ball in my throat though. i think it's a place for me to visit myself and w/ another maybe. at least for the first time. *sigh* what coulda been..... Yeah, for me I always thought that it would be so hard just getting to his grave... I always thought I'd cry my eyes out and feel extremely sad. Shannon's been my best and only friend since I was 15 even though I never knew him, but you know... Being 15 and moving to a foreign country and not speaking the language... it was hard but his words kept me sane. Even after learning the language I had a real hard time making friends in school, Ive always been a bit weird I guess.. But you know, HE was keeping me company (and singing to me ) when I was eating lunch by myself and walking back home from school. It's always been like that. But anyway, I always felt I NEEDED to go there someday, especially when I found the boards and made the best friends in life anyone could have. I mean yeah I now have made some good friends here but never have I connected with a group of people like the melonheads... But when I got to Lafayette and met up for the first time with people like Kiwi, Panda, Fernanda and a few other melonheads I already felt the energy.. It was time to celebrate, not to mourn. I remember that day like it was yesterday, Sept. 24th 2004... I got there and there were maybe 4 or 5 other people... Panda's guitar was sitting next to the grave, some guy was playing St Andrews, one of my favorite melon tunes, and I just stood there staring at his grave and SMILING. Yes, smiling... I thought the last thing I'd wanna do when I got there was smile, but i couldnt help it. I didn't see it as "Im here at Shannon's grave", it felt more like "I'm here next to Shannon". It was a good feeling. If the vigil was about mourning his death then it would be held around the time of Oct 21st.. But it's not, it's about celebrating his life, and I also take the time to celebrate my own and everyone else's there. I agree with Tonya that it's important to spend some alone time with Shannon too, though. Before leaving Indiana in 04 the girls and I made our last stop at the cemetary and stayed in the car, taking turns going to the grave for a one-on-one with Shannon. I cried then, fact, very few times in my life did I cry so much as I did on that occasion.. But it still felt good, I sat there and actually talked out loud with him for a few minutes... Btw, I realize this probably sounds completely psycho to some of you... Im always afraid some people will think that all of us who come to the vigil are crazy Shannon worshippers and whatnot, but I promise it's not like that.. It's a really cool and friendly environment where people come from all over the world and play/sing melon songs, meet other melonheads, hug strangers, hear lots of Shannon tales from his family members (thats the best part eh girls? He had so many stories... "In five lifetimes, hell I couldnt do them all" ;D), etc. So tripticket, I say come to the vigil, I promise you wont regret... Yes, deff. come early and spend some alone time with him, but dont miss the chance to be a party of his birthday celebration, it's life changing I promise... And once you go, you wont be able to live without it. I missed the last one and even though there was nothing I could do I still cant forgive myself... Do yourself a favor and be there in 07 Yep yep. I agree with everything Gabbee just said. It is actually a life changing experience. And I believe the positive vibe that you feel comes from the presence of Shannon's spirit itself. That's my belief anyway. If you're on my myspace friend's list, then go look up an old blog of mine from back last September. I posted some pictures there from the Vigil last year which in my mind confirm what I've always felt - that Shannon IS there for the Vigil. And in fact, it's not as tho I believe he just hangs around at his grave -- not at all. But I do feel he's there when people are there reflecting on his life and the gifts he left us. My friend Terry said it best "Of course he's there! He loves us too!"
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Post by Marika on Jan 18, 2007 15:32:41 GMT -5
Yeah, for me I always thought that it would be so hard just getting to his grave... I always thought I'd cry my eyes out and feel extremely sad. Shannon's been my best and only friend since I was 15 even though I never knew him, but you know... Being 15 and moving to a foreign country and not speaking the language... it was hard but his words kept me sane. Even after learning the language I had a real hard time making friends in school, Ive always been a bit weird I guess.. But you know, HE was keeping me company (and singing to me ) when I was eating lunch by myself and walking back home from school. It's always been like that. But anyway, I always felt I NEEDED to go there someday, especially when I found the boards and made the best friends in life anyone could have. I mean yeah I now have made some good friends here but never have I connected with a group of people like the melonheads... But when I got to Lafayette and met up for the first time with people like Kiwi, Panda, Fernanda and a few other melonheads I already felt the energy.. It was time to celebrate, not to mourn. I remember that day like it was yesterday, Sept. 24th 2004... I got there and there were maybe 4 or 5 other people... Panda's guitar was sitting next to the grave, some guy was playing St Andrews, one of my favorite melon tunes, and I just stood there staring at his grave and SMILING. Yes, smiling... I thought the last thing I'd wanna do when I got there was smile, but i couldnt help it. I didn't see it as "Im here at Shannon's grave", it felt more like "I'm here next to Shannon". It was a good feeling. If the vigil was about mourning his death then it would be held around the time of Oct 21st.. But it's not, it's about celebrating his life, and I also take the time to celebrate my own and everyone else's there. I agree with Tonya that it's important to spend some alone time with Shannon too, though. Before leaving Indiana in 04 the girls and I made our last stop at the cemetary and stayed in the car, taking turns going to the grave for a one-on-one with Shannon. I cried then, fact, very few times in my life did I cry so much as I did on that occasion.. But it still felt good, I sat there and actually talked out loud with him for a few minutes... Btw, I realize this probably sounds completely psycho to some of you... Im always afraid some people will think that all of us who come to the vigil are crazy Shannon worshippers and whatnot, but I promise it's not like that.. It's a really cool and friendly environment where people come from all over the world and play/sing melon songs, meet other melonheads, hug strangers, hear lots of Shannon tales from his family members (thats the best part eh girls? He had so many stories... "In five lifetimes, hell I couldnt do them all" ;D), etc. So tripticket, I say come to the vigil, I promise you wont regret... Yes, deff. come early and spend some alone time with him, but dont miss the chance to be a party of his birthday celebration, it's life changing I promise... And once you go, you wont be able to live without it. I missed the last one and even though there was nothing I could do I still cant forgive myself... Do yourself a favor and be there in 07 Gabby your words make me shiver, When you said Shannon was been yr best and only friend...yes I feel the same thing very often he keep me great company every day with his voice and with his presence yes because I'm sure his spirit is all around. Here I haven't so many friends I have only a few of them, and when I was at the Vigil everythig changed, I meet LOTS of wonderful people, a bunch of friends that didin't talk my language and that lives miles and miles away from me, and when I talk with my friends and my family I use to call them/you "MY FRIENDS" although I haven't meet lots of you yet.
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Post by hoon1234 on Jan 18, 2007 16:45:17 GMT -5
Yeah, for me I always thought that it would be so hard just getting to his grave... I always thought I'd cry my eyes out and feel extremely sad. Shannon's been my best and only friend since I was 15 even though I never knew him, but you know... Being 15 and moving to a foreign country and not speaking the language... it was hard but his words kept me sane. Even after learning the language I had a real hard time making friends in school, Ive always been a bit weird I guess.. But you know, HE was keeping me company (and singing to me ) when I was eating lunch by myself and walking back home from school. It's always been like that. But anyway, I always felt I NEEDED to go there someday, especially when I found the boards and made the best friends in life anyone could have. I mean yeah I now have made some good friends here but never have I connected with a group of people like the melonheads... But when I got to Lafayette and met up for the first time with people like Kiwi, Panda, Fernanda and a few other melonheads I already felt the energy.. It was time to celebrate, not to mourn. I remember that day like it was yesterday, Sept. 24th 2004... I got there and there were maybe 4 or 5 other people... Panda's guitar was sitting next to the grave, some guy was playing St Andrews, one of my favorite melon tunes, and I just stood there staring at his grave and SMILING. Yes, smiling... I thought the last thing I'd wanna do when I got there was smile, but i couldnt help it. I didn't see it as "Im here at Shannon's grave", it felt more like "I'm here next to Shannon". It was a good feeling. If the vigil was about mourning his death then it would be held around the time of Oct 21st.. But it's not, it's about celebrating his life, and I also take the time to celebrate my own and everyone else's there. I agree with Tonya that it's important to spend some alone time with Shannon too, though. Before leaving Indiana in 04 the girls and I made our last stop at the cemetary and stayed in the car, taking turns going to the grave for a one-on-one with Shannon. I cried then, fact, very few times in my life did I cry so much as I did on that occasion.. But it still felt good, I sat there and actually talked out loud with him for a few minutes... Btw, I realize this probably sounds completely psycho to some of you... Im always afraid some people will think that all of us who come to the vigil are crazy Shannon worshippers and whatnot, but I promise it's not like that.. It's a really cool and friendly environment where people come from all over the world and play/sing melon songs, meet other melonheads, hug strangers, hear lots of Shannon tales from his family members (thats the best part eh girls? He had so many stories... "In five lifetimes, hell I couldnt do them all" ;D), etc. So tripticket, I say come to the vigil, I promise you wont regret... Yes, deff. come early and spend some alone time with him, but dont miss the chance to be a party of his birthday celebration, it's life changing I promise... And once you go, you wont be able to live without it. I missed the last one and even though there was nothing I could do I still cant forgive myself... Do yourself a favor and be there in 07 Gabby your words make me shiver, When you said Shannon was been yr best and only friend...yes I feel the same thing very often he keep me great company every day with his voice and with his presence yes because I'm sure his spirit is all around. Here I haven't so many friends I have only a few of them, and when I was at the Vigil everythig changed, I meet LOTS of wonderful people, a bunch of friends that didin't talk my language and that lives miles and miles away from me, and when I talk with my friends and my family I use to call them/you "MY FRIENDS" although I haven't meet lots of you yet. Well now that you've met us Marika, do you still want to be friends?? #smiliegreen#
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Post by Gabbee on Jan 19, 2007 1:08:54 GMT -5
Gabby your words make me shiver, When you said Shannon was been yr best and only friend...yes I feel the same thing very often he keep me great company every day with his voice and with his presence yes because I'm sure his spirit is all around. Here I haven't so many friends I have only a few of them, and when I was at the Vigil everythig changed, I meet LOTS of wonderful people, a bunch of friends that didin't talk my language and that lives miles and miles away from me, and when I talk with my friends and my family I use to call them/you "MY FRIENDS" although I haven't meet lots of you yet. EXACTLY! And yes, to me you're all brothers and sisters, whether Ive met you in person or not. It's funny, the people closest to me are so used to it... My parents even know a lot of you melonheads by name! I cant wait to finally meet you Marika, you're a wonderful person and I adore you before even meeting you! MUAH! Tonya, I deffinately agree that Shannon is really truly present during the vigils and those pictures are pretty damn cool. It might be explained from a photographer's point of view as being something else, but you were there at that moment and you felt it. Thats enough proof in my opinion? I also believe in people becoming angels after they die, and I do think Shannon looks after each and every one of us. Just wanted to add for all those who've never been that the vigil is almost a religious experience man. It's deffinately the time I restore my faith in the Human race, it's a time people come together out of LOVE for one man, and you wouldnt believe the things some of these people have to go through to be there (take Marika, Lillie and Kiwi for example)... And anything that takes place out of love has got to be magic right?
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Post by leslie0754 on Jan 19, 2007 2:29:31 GMT -5
Hey where is the mini vigil going to be and what time my boyfriend and i are die hard melon fans and go visit shannon and pay respect all the time but havent made it to vigil i was suppose to go for 2006 but hes been locked up for marijuana for 8 months now and gets out late march if someone would help me out withtime and location id appreciate it much love ~peace~
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Post by hoon1234 on Jan 19, 2007 10:48:00 GMT -5
Hey where is the mini vigil going to be and what time my boyfriend and i are die hard melon fans and go visit shannon and pay respect all the time but havent made it to vigil i was suppose to go for 2006 but hes been locked up for marijuana for 8 months now and gets out late march if someone would help me out withtime and location id appreciate it much love ~peace~ PISH! Locked up for marijuana? ? DAMN THE FUCKING MAN, MAN!!!! DAMN THE MAN!!!! It's just so wrong. How can they outlaw a fucking plant??? That grows from the goddamn ground? OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOFFFFFFFFff I could go on forever about it. The mini-vigil is the weekend of 4/20. If you're on myspace, there's a group for it. AND if you're on myspace, add me so you can keep informed. I would LOVE to see as many Melons there as possible!! Last year I would say there werrrrrrrre. . . . well, I got the bird flu and had to leave early but I would say. . . 30? But that's VERY good for just the mini-vigil. Of course a the actual vigil there are HUNDREDS. But the mini-vigil is a very special thing too. I once again agree with everything Gabbee said about the Vigil. It IS a religious experience. It's cuz you can feel Shannon there, I think, that makes it so magical. And it IS so fabulous, cuz everyone is there out of love, innit Gabbee? And I was VERY touched also by your story about how Shannon was your best friend. #console# Now you have all of us! #smileyhug# The Vigil almost reminds me of going to the shows. It's that kind of universal love vibe. If you've been you know what I mean! #thumb#
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Post by Gabbee on Jan 19, 2007 12:30:27 GMT -5
Hey where is the mini vigil going to be and what time my boyfriend and i are die hard melon fans and go visit shannon and pay respect all the time but havent made it to vigil i was suppose to go for 2006 but hes been locked up for marijuana for 8 months now and gets out late march if someone would help me out withtime and location id appreciate it much love ~peace~ PISH! Locked up for marijuana? ? DAMN THE FUCKING MAN, MAN!!!! DAMN THE MAN!!!! It's just so wrong. How can they outlaw a fucking plant??? That grows from the goddamn ground? OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOFFFFFFFFff I could go on forever about it. The mini-vigil is the weekend of 4/20. If you're on myspace, there's a group for it. AND if you're on myspace, add me so you can keep informed. I would LOVE to see as many Melons there as possible!! Last year I would say there werrrrrrrre. . . . well, I got the bird flu and had to leave early but I would say. . . 30? But that's VERY good for just the mini-vigil. Of course a the actual vigil there are HUNDREDS. But the mini-vigil is a very special thing too. I once again agree with everything Gabbee said about the Vigil. It IS a religious experience. It's cuz you can feel Shannon there, I think, that makes it so magical. And it IS so fabulous, cuz everyone is there out of love, innit Gabbee? And I was VERY touched also by your story about how Shannon was your best friend. #console# Now you have all of us! #smileyhug# The Vigil almost reminds me of going to the shows. It's that kind of universal love vibe. If you've been you know what I mean! #thumb# Awwww thanks #smileyhug# And yup, thats exactly how it feels... Like Nel once said, it's like instead of dying Shannon just multiplied and a little bit of him is in every single one of us fans.. So I went from having one best friend to having a few hundreds Damn, I cant wait to be there again... Really wish I could go on 4/20, dang it! Leslie, sorry to hear about your boyfriend... It's a SHAME, but let's not get into that. When is he getting out? I think you guys should deff. go to the mini-vigil and be there in September as well! Dont forget to come back and report to us how much fun you had!!! See you in September #smileyhug#
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Post by Marika on Jan 19, 2007 14:55:38 GMT -5
Gabby your words make me shiver, When you said Shannon was been yr best and only friend...yes I feel the same thing very often he keep me great company every day with his voice and with his presence yes because I'm sure his spirit is all around. Here I haven't so many friends I have only a few of them, and when I was at the Vigil everythig changed, I meet LOTS of wonderful people, a bunch of friends that didin't talk my language and that lives miles and miles away from me, and when I talk with my friends and my family I use to call them/you "MY FRIENDS" although I haven't meet lots of you yet. Well now that you've met us Marika, do you still want to be friends?? #smiliegreen# Oh well I really don't know...... #hide# #whistle# #outtahere# Just kidding, yes Tonya I still want because you're amazing truly amazing, often I don't like at the people because I'm not cool and almost nobody have the same taste of me and maybe they judge me a little weird for the thing I use to do (as the Vigil for example) but staying with you all guys fillied my little life of a new light.
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Post by Marika on Jan 19, 2007 14:58:34 GMT -5
My parents even know a lot of you melonheads by name! I cant wait to finally meet you Marika, you're a wonderful person and I adore you before even meeting you! MUAH! Yes Gabby my parents and my sister too, and it's awesome! And can't wait to meet you too Gabby.
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Post by hoon1234 on Jan 19, 2007 22:44:06 GMT -5
Well now that you've met us Marika, do you still want to be friends?? #smiliegreen# Oh well I really don't know...... #hide# #whistle# #outtahere# Just kidding, yes Tonya I still want because you're amazing truly amazing, often I don't like at the people because I'm not cool and almost nobody have the same taste of me and maybe they judge me a little weird for the thing I use to do (as the Vigil for example) but staying with you all guys fillied my little life of a new light. I would say we accomplished shedding a red light on a little unity, wouldn't you Marika?? And you're TOTALLY cool! And beautiful and kind and charming and exceptional and extraordinary!!!! #grinning-smiley-027# #bee# We need a red light smilie!!!!
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Post by Marika on Jan 20, 2007 9:42:09 GMT -5
Thanks Tonya you're an "And I'm feeling better when I'm high with a red light shinning on ......a little unity" I LOVE ALL THIS MELON LOVE because it's so special and it makes me feel better everytime!
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Post by Barbara on Jan 20, 2007 17:37:52 GMT -5
Awwww Gabbee, your story gave me chills, you're a foreigner and you say how it's not your language but I always LOVE your way of saying things, it's always so passionate, positive and well said! #smileyhug#
Leslie that F*****G SUCKS about your boyfriend going to jail because of weed! What kind of world are we living in? I could go on too, but I better just stop here...
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Post by Marika on Jan 20, 2007 17:52:30 GMT -5
Like Nel once said, it's like instead of dying Shannon just multiplied and a little bit of him is in every single one of us fans.. So I went from having one best friend to having a few hundreds yes maybe a little part of him is inside all of us, deep in our heart, I love this thought, it makes me chill. #heart#
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Post by hoon1234 on Jan 20, 2007 23:14:49 GMT -5
Like Nel once said, it's like instead of dying Shannon just multiplied and a little bit of him is in every single one of us fans.. So I went from having one best friend to having a few hundreds yes maybe a little part of him is inside all of us, deep in our heart, I love this thought, it makes me chill. #heart# Dig it. Dig it. Sharing the Hoon Love, that's what I'm talkin' about.
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